“How do I gather the courage to tell him my true feelings?”
Sarah’s heart raced, torn between the fear of rejection and the burning desire to reveal her true feelings to Mark. He could sense that something weighed heavily on her, as he had asked her multiple times, but her silence had grown deafening. She appeared outwardly composed, but her eyes betrayed the storm within.
Sarah and Mark had known each other for years, their friendship growing stronger daily. They shared laughter, tears, and endless conversations, but deep and unspoken love began to take root beneath the surface of their platonic relationship. The love was never expressed but understood. Some emotions are to be felt, Mark always used to say.
They say a kind of love that cannot be united is always passionate. When you know that the person you love can never be yours, you love more deeply. And honey, this kind of love, never dies in you. The pain, the agony, the passion, the love, the longing you feel for your lover just grows within you every day. It comes to a point where you can’t bear it anymore, and you want to free yourself from it. Alas! If only letting go was that simple!
Sarah was feeling the same today. Sarah couldn’t bear the agony of unspoken love any longer. Mark consumed her thoughts, and her longing for him was a relentless ache. She yearned to be in his arms, to experience the depth of their love, even if only once. But she knew the cruel reality – they could never be together.
Desperation and despair welled up within her. “But how do I keep him out of my mind? How do I express the love I have for him? That I never stopped loving him, even after all these years? I breathe for him, live for him, and I cannot be together with him. No, I cannot do this. Why am I feeling this? Why do I love him so much? He doesn’t even believe in soulmates, and I know he’s my soulmate. Why do his eyes always captivate me in them? No, I can’t think about him any longer. But can I only hug him? Or just hold his hands? Just once can I feel his touch? Can I feel his breath closer? No, I can’t… How do I get past these feelings?”
How does one silence the seismic tremors of the mind? How does one get away from the temptations?
It was hard for Sarah too. Expressing the love and her feelings was futile here, it would make no difference to the truth. Unable to quell the tempest within, she decided to take a walk.
The ever-so-romantic starry night and chilly wind came as a curse for Sarah, for the yearning for him developed even more.
“How I wish he was here….” Sarah thought to herself.
Startled by the voice that came behind Sarah, she turned only to see Mark approaching her.
“How did he…. He knows me very well…” Sarah never expected Mark to remember small things about her, but Mark took her by surprise tonight when he showed up at her secret spot.
“I know something is bothering you. Just let it out, you’ll feel better.”
“It’s nothing. I am not bothered by anything.”
Her lips trembled with the lies she was telling.
“Eyes, they never lie, remember?”
Their eyes locked. Speechless.
He waited for Sarah to speak.
Sarah could not take her eyes off him. Oh! How could she? Aren’t his eyes captivating?
Mark returned her gaze, his eyes reflecting the same turmoil she felt. With no answers in sight, he began to walk away.
“I love you.”
“I love you.”
Both whispered in their breaths.
True feelings were expressed, like many times before, and no one heard them.
Did it feel light? No.
Was the pain gone? No.
Was the love intensified? Yes.
Did they weep? Yes, along with you and me.
Love brings umpteen emotions with itself, and look at what it does! It’s a blessing and a curse to love someone truly. And you really need to be blessed to have this curse!